9.26.2005

The Irony of Life

It's amazing to me how God uses irony in our lives. Recently, I've been reading the book, "A New Kind of Christian" by Brian McLaren, and many of the principles put forth in the book resound deeply within me. As I finished chapter 15, I felt closer to God than I ever have before. I felt for the first time that I knew exactly what my purpose was. For as long as I can remember, I have had certain thoughts that I thought were uniquely mine. Thoughts that, if they were shared with other people, I thought would be considered "unorthodox". And many of them haven't come to my mind for several years. Until now. As I have been studying the emerging church movement and the deconstruction of modernism, many of the principles contained therein resonate so deeply within me that I know that's what God is preparing me for. In these moments where my past and my future collide, I feel that the veil between the magnificent and the mundane, the holy and the human, is very thin, almost fleeting. It's as if I'm standing on the edge of something great, something greater than my mind can imagine from my present vantage point, but which has the power to transform my future.
But as my my past and my future collide, I'm caught in the middle, in the whirlpool of my ingrained theology which must be deconstructed if I want to move further into my future. This causes chaos because I have a new theology in my head which is not fully formed yet, and which at many points is in direct opposition to my "traditional" theology.
But all praise and glory be to God, who is over ALL! Amidst my confusion, God's hand is present and will sustain me. God is shouting to me over the crashing of the torment, "My son, I have faith in you! I believe that you will fulfill this purpose for which I have placed you here. Now you must have faith in yourself. Have faith that you will succeed. Have faith that you can make a difference. As a team, you and I will do great things. You might be my chosen vessel to transform the world!" And with this reassurance, I know I can press on. I know I will make it.

Matt

9.16.2005

An Old Look At Salvation: Revisited

So I was thinking about how we "do" salvation Wednesday night at our youth outreach event, "Treasure Island". I think the evangelical circle of today has got it all wrong. I was thinking about the church's epidemic of "saved sinners". Our evangelists, pastors, teachers, etc., in the church are too focused on "saving souls from hell" that it never occurred to them that maybe there's more to salvation than that. Maybe salvation is not just a one-time occurrence in which we say a prayer and leave it at that. I mean, I haven't found anywhere in the Bible where it even says that a person has to say a prayer in order to be saved. It says to believe in your heart that Jesus died for your sins and confess that He is your Lord and Savior. But I think we've got it wrong for two reasons: (1) by saying the "salvation prayer", it is very possible for a person to not really believe in their hearts, but rather, to just be repeating the words of the pastor or evangelist due to the guilt they feel from the "fire and brimstone" sermon said pastor/evangelist just preached. It is NOT their job to convict people. It is their job to preach the gospel with urgency and let the Holy Spirit convict people. And (2): belief and confession is not a one time event in which we say "I believe in you Jesus; you are my Lord and Savior", but rather, it is a continual, daily event that has to do more with our lifestyle than empty words. I've seen too many people who say they believe Jesus died for their sins and that He is their Lord and Savior, but then willing do just that which is contrary to Jesus' teachings. I think we who are the spiritual leaders of the church need to rethink how we present the message of salvation. I'm not saying that we change the message presented in the Bible, but rather, I am saying we need to go back to the message of the Bible. When we present the gospel, people need to understand that yes, when they accept what Jesus has done for them, all the sins they ever have committed or will commit have been forgiven; but they also need to understand that it is not a commitment to be taken lightly, but rather a commitment that will (or should) consume their very being and the rest of their life. Christ told us to deny ourselves, take up our crosses, and follow him. It is quite rare today to find a person who is faithfully obeying this command to its fullest. I just want people to understand that salvation, although it is a particular event in history, is also a continuing process that will not be complete until we see Jesus face-to-face.


doulos Iesou Xristou

9.09.2005

My Worldview

I think God is trying to speak to me. I mean, not in an audible voice, obviously, but through things I've been thinking about. I've been studying up a lot lately about the emerging church and postmodernism in relation to the church of the 21st century, and much of what I've been reading and thinking about are ideas that I've had in my head for a long time, or just ways that I have looked at the world, but which I didn't have the words to express, or even worse, maybe I thought I would be condemned as a heretic for expressing them. But I'm excited about the whole concept of holistic, missional, Christian communities; as much as I like to study megachurches, I think the future for us is in the "microchurches". God definitely works through our circumstances, and its amazing to think back over the past couple of years and see how God has worked through my circumstances to prepare me for this week of 'revelation'. And its not over yet! I think it's awesome that we can be ourselves, live within our culture, without compromising a "gospel lifestyle".


I'm not sure how much faith to have in these quizzes, but these ones pretty accurately reflect my worldview, so I'm pleased with them.


What is your model of the church?

You scored as Herald Model.
Your model of the church is Herald. The organization of the church is much less important than the urgency of announcing the Good News of salvation to all the world. The Holy Spirit moves the individual to belief in Jesus Christ and to do the will of the Father by sharing this message with others. As with other models, the narrowness of this model could be supplemented by drawing on other models.


Herald Model 83%
Mystical Communion Model 78%
Sacrament model 72%
Servant Model 72%
Institutional Model 28%




What's your theological worldview?

To create your own quiz, click here

You scored as Emergent/Postmodern.
You are Emergent/Postmodern in your theology. You feel alienated from older forms of church, you don't think they connect to modern culture very well. No one knows the whole truth about God, and we have much to learn from each other, and so learning takes place in dialogue. Evangelism should take place in relationships rather than through crusades and altar-calls. People are interested in spirituality and want to ask questions, so the church should help them to do this.


Emergent/Postmodern 89%
Evangelical Holiness/Wesleyan 86%
Charismatic/Pentecostal 71%
Neo orthodox 57%
Classical Liberal 54%
Fundamentalist 50%
Reformed Evangelical 43%
Roman Catholic 43%
Modern Liberal 32%

9.08.2005

Summer Pictures

These are some pictures of my summer. I worked at Kids Across America, an urban summer kamp that provides Christian athletics for urban kids from across America.

This is Adam. He was a runner 2nd term.














Matt Estler being himself.














Elise and Abby.



















Rachel the head cook. And a mighty good one at that.














This is David. He was a runner 1st term.















This is Trey. He was a runner 1st and 2nd terms.



9.07.2005

Revolutionaries

I've been thinking a good deal lately, which is nothing new. But the subject of many of my thoughts is one which I thought I would never give much consideration to. The source of many of these thoughts is the book 'A New Kind of Christian' by Brian McLaren. The subject of my thoughts is the postmodern church and postmodern Christianity. See, I was raised in the modern world (most, if not all, of us were). And as an evangelical, Protestant, conservative Christian with an evangelical, Protestant, conservative worldview, I have always been taught to believe (as long as I can remember) that postmodernism and Christianity are two mutually exclusive ideas. Something like: postmodern = bad; Christianity = good. Because of this, I never thought there were any alternative possibilities. But now, I'm starting to see that maybe, just maybe, postmodern doesn't always mean bad. Maybe postmodernism is a philosophy is severely flawed. But that doesn't mean that postmodernism as a culture has to suffer just because it takes on the banner "postmodern".
I mean, during the medieval times, "modern" was probably hailed with about as much enthusiasm by the Church as is "postmodern" today. I mean, look at Galileo, Copernicus, Columbus, the revolutionaries of their time in their fields -- they were nearly (if not completely) labeled as heretics for proposing ideas such as a heliocentric universe as opposed to the traditional "church" view of a geocentric universe, or that the Earth is a sphere as opposed to the traditional "church" view of a flat "disc" earth. Yet after a few decades, the church found out how wrong it really was and ended up accepting these ideas as true. Or Martin Luther, John Calvin, the great reformers of the sixteenth century. Their ideas about church practices were revolutionary, radical, and unorthodox to the general population of Christians. But in retrospect, we can see that their revolutionary ideas became the overarching standard for religious practice in the world, and have been for the last four hundred years or more.
What if it's the same now? What if we're leaving the modern era of culture and entering the age of postmodernistic culture? Is it really that bad? I mean, we have about three options. We can dig in with our heels in a futile attempt to keep ourselves from flying into the postmodern world, which will do us no good, and will ultimately leave us rolling in the dust of a new era. Our second option is to sit by and let the postmodern world 'happen' as it will, slowly creeping in one aspect of life at a time, until one day we wake up and realize that our culture is a completely different world than it was last we checked. This is not altogether a bad option, and I think the vast majority of people will fall into this category. Most people do. They don't want to stir up the waters or make a splash in the river of culture for fear of what others will think, or because they're afraid of opposition (many times, overlooking the fact that Jesus didn't sit by and "let things happen" around him; he was a revolutionary; he stirred up the waters, regardless of the opposition). The vast majority of church people in the sixteenth century fell into this category. There are only a few people we could consider "revolutionaries"; people who were actively making splashes in the culture, stirring things up, bringing about a change. Which leads me to the third option, the one I personally want to be a part of. The last option is to stir things up--make an impact on the world's culture. But don't do it just to do it. Change is coming; why not be a catalyst to bring about that change. To help the church transition into a postmodern culture. There is absolutely nothing wrong with the church adapting to a new culture, as long as our lives show there is a difference between "us" and "them". We are told to be "called out" and "set apart"; our lifestyle is one of holiness before God and man. But we cannot become out of touch with the culture, or our witness will become largely ineffective.
So the decision is up to you -- will you be one of the few to help push us toward a new church culture? If so, you are taking on a huge responsibility, because balance is the most important key; the way of "doing" church needs to change, but we must do this very delicately, with the utmost care and accountability, because we must not compromise the message of the gospel in the process.

Matt